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May. 24th, 2006 | 10:36 am
location: Home
mood: calmcalm
music: Royal Tennebaums- I'm on a kick

Although erised has been very faithful to me for almost six years,  I've created a new account.  When I first started livejournalling, I vented my insecurities, stirred up drama, and partook in many, many memes and surrveys.  That was the fun of it all!  Now, however, I would like to use my journal as a slightly more sophisitcated tool; talk about stupid grown up things, and use lj as an information sharing tool.  Finishing school, becoming an educated citizen, planning a wedding, and evaluating social situations in different areas of the country while I decide where to start my family  have all got me thinking, and where better to cultivate your ideas but in a forum where faceless millions all have an opinion to share!

It may sound corny, but I treasure my livejournal.  As I said in my new blog, livejournal is the only consistant chronicle or YEARS of growth and development for me.  I slogged through six years of almost daily entries recently, and I was taken aback by how important reading all that was for me.  I will not be deleting this journal, but I won't be writing in it anymore.  Please join me at ashlieelizabeth if you're interested in keeping up not only with my day-to-day stuff (which is dead useful for keeping up with high school friends without ever having to contact them) but also talking about world issues, and other pretentious things that I have no idea about yet, but hope to figure out.

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Need a little help...

May. 22nd, 2006 | 10:01 am
mood: nervousnervous
music: the royal tennebaums

This is a quick question for all my friends in the Fitchburg/Leominster area...

I just got an awesome job at a preschool in Gardner called The Caring Place. I love it, and have already spent a day subbing there, even though I'm not supposed to start until May 30th. It's in a big Victorian house, and the concept is really cool; the kids can move around in the different rooms and they love it. It really seems like a place where I can learn a lot and develop a great reference for the future.

However...they are playing me the lowest amount I have ever worked for. Ben and I talked it over and we agreed that if I really loved this place then that's where I should be. Still, money is making me panic right now. I'm trying to find a part time job where I can bring in some extra money, but the preschool schedule is hard to work around. I'm not available until 6:30 on weeknights, which rules out most restaurants, and I can't work on Sundays because I promised myself that I woud reserve one day a week so I never get burned out. I feel like that is as important as any amount of money.

So now I'm left with limited options, and I thought I'd open up the question to the capable minds out there :) I live next to the college, and since I'm already travelling 40 minutes to the preschool, I don't want to go much further than Leominster for part time work. Any ideas? Today I'm trying Barnes and Noble and a few other local businesses, but I'm nervous because I've heard that B&N doesn't hire that often. Please give me some encouragement, I really need it!!

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May. 15th, 2006 | 10:45 pm
mood: loose

I am all done school!!

Tonight, I was in the bedroom for a long time while Ben was watching movies in the living room. I was reading Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince. I finished, and walked out of the bedroom crying, and curled up in Ben's arms. And he said..."Oh, Dumbledore...oh my poor baby."

He remembered from LAST SUMMER why I was crying, and did not remark that I STILL cry rereading it for the 3rd time.

What a guy.

Looking forward to working at a preschool, and breakfasts with Megan, and many more movie nights, but right now the wine is making me sleepy.

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reading day

May. 10th, 2006 | 08:35 am
mood: chilly

This is a nice feeling; mostly everything has been wrapped up. Classes have ended, and most of my finals are finished, as well. I have to go to Fine Arts as a formality, and I'm hoping there will be no more grade wars in there, and Spanish, being a night class, lasts until next Monday. The biggest thing that's weighing on my mind is the MTEL. The Massachusetts Teacher Education Liscensure test. I've taken the standard Communication and Literature test, but the Foundations of Reading is classically terrifying and I'm so nervous. To make a long story short, all of my plans about the wedding and moving south could be very mixed up if I don't make it through. I know I'm good at tests, but I also know that my cockiness could cost me. I'm taking it on Saturday, and I'm going to study hard until then. When THAT is over, summer will have truly begun.

On a happier note, Ben and I have decided where we want the wedding to be. We're getting married on Lake Champlain in Vermont. It's beautiful and out of state, but close enough to keep mostly everyone happy. My grandparents have a house on top of a mountain, and there is a beautiful park on the water where we'll have the ceremony. With this detail cemented, it's a lot easier to make other plans. It's going to be so pretty.

I'm going to relax and job hunt a little this week. Wish me luck!

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there was a maypole in my classroom

May. 1st, 2006 | 08:38 pm
mood: happyhappy

There's only one and a half weeks of school left. Then I will cease to be a junior. I will be a senior. A SENIOR. I have a very big test in 13 days; the Foundations of Reading mtel. I also need to take the Early Childhood Content test in July. All my education is catching up to me...and then...STUDENT TEACHING!!

I'm excited for the completely blank slate of the summer. I'm thinking about a lot of different options, all involving one summer-long job and one restaurant job that I will try and keep for the next year or so. I was thinking about applying to libraries and Barnes and Noble, but summer camp is a lovely longing option as well. As far as restaurants, it's hard to find work around here, and I don't want travel too far. If I can find something temporary, I'll hold out until the new Olive Garden opens up, and try like hell to get into there. I think September? Good plan?

Our house is full to the brim with booooks. I have a date to go into Boston on Friday with Jen. Ben and I are talking about wedding plans a little closer to the heart. And Guster this week. Things are good.

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wedding help

Apr. 21st, 2006 | 08:14 am
location: home
mood: hopefulhopeful
music: fox 25 morning news

I've avoided becoming the engaged girl who talks about nothing but her wedding, and wanders around copying her married name. But I am appealing to my New England-based friends for some serious help. I hate wedding planning.


Yes. At first, I was head over heels in love with the entire idea. By now, the only thing left to love is Ben. See, I've been doing my research, using every type of media, and I've tried many different kinds of venues. I can't find a SINGLE thing that I like! I don't want to get married in a hotel ballroom, or a white picket gazebo, or a boat on a lake with coordinated swans. Ben and I would never eat glazed pork, chicken with wild mushroom stuffing, or ANYTHING involing a raspberry puree. I don't want anything I've seen. IN fact, I want the opposite.

Here is my dream wedding:

We're all in an apple orchard. Ben and I have the ceremony under some tree branches, and everyone is seated in wooden chairs with linen drapes. I want a simple ceremony, with a unity candle, and I want my mom to sing and Ben's mom to play her beautiful Irish music. We'll be pronounced man and wife, and we'll kiss SO BEAUTIFULLY. Then we'll begin a procession, followed by the wedding party and then the guests, and the whole 100+ of us will walk together down a winding path to a huge tent set up with twinkle lights and lanterns. When we get there, there will be fresh fruit and lemonade, and set-ups with childhood pictures and memories of family and friends. We'll greet our guests as they find their place cards on the table, and everyone will be seated. We'll be announced by the dj (set up inside the huge tent) and then dinner will be served. SIMPLE dinner. A couple soups, Panera style sandwiches. I want the simplest, normalest foods. Good things, station style. Champange toasts, toasts from Vatche and Laurel. Music. Goofy wedding tradtions. A mix of nostalgic and meaningful music (old favorites of ours, and float on OF COURSE) with swing, jazz standards, and party numbers. Wrap it up early. Say goodbye with sparklers and firecrackers. Ben and I drive away in a rented car. We'll be back at the end of the summer.



I need something untouched by wedding planners, glitter restrictions, and complimentary chocolate-cover strawberries served by a butler during the photo op. I was thinking Marshall or Sholan farms. I want an orchard/farm type feel, with space to set up a giant tent for the celebration after. Does anyone have any ideas? The only thing I'm refusing to do is have it at any type of hotel. I desperately need help because if I don't come up with something, I'm going to end up with the country-club special. That kind of wedding is gorgeous, but it's just not us.


Thank you!

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april may june july you ain't got no alibi

Apr. 11th, 2006 | 10:18 am

it is SO gorgeous outside. i've never been happier than this moment, with my child psych exam finished, a day fairly well planned out, Easter this weekend, and looooveeeeee.


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a new way of computing

Apr. 3rd, 2006 | 09:13 pm
mood: relaxedrelaxed
music: ben's watching a documentary about an institution

a lot has happened. crunch time arrived in the semester. there was a moment when our hearts skipped a beat; a couple years ahead of schedule, huh? when it was over our sighs weren't relief or disappointment. just the exhalation of returning to normal.

now i am considering so many things. i have a lot of work to get done, so i spend almost all of my time figuring out how to make the most of the last year of my undergraduate education. i have a dream about getting my masters in children's literature and opening an interactive museum full of centers revolving around wonderful books. it would be cross curricular and follow standards and it would be a keystone of education for the rest of time. it's such a beautiful dream, but i'll probably just have a kindergarten classroom. that's no less beautiful.

i had some doctor's appointments. i've lost 15 pounds and am healthier and stronger. i am on new birth control, a lower dosage, and am ahead of the schedule with my immunizations and physicals. i go to the gym and am starting a yoga class. i am eating much better, preparing my own meals, taking full advantage of 100 calorie snack packs, and take a mulitvitamin for women every morning. i still indulge with ice cream.

ben's new business is picking up, and as much as he hates his 9-5, it's teaching us where we want to go. i've come to term with wedding plans, and not becoming a bridezilla before my time. we visited northhampton and found so many nice books in the used book stores. we are gentle and happy when we spend time together, and we work hard all week for the sunday reward.

a day for just the two of us.

that's where i stand right now.

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here are some great things about lately

Mar. 16th, 2006 | 09:24 am
mood: coldcold

sunday ben's parents and brother came up and we all met at the lancaster flea market. we had fun browsing around, and ben got to see his family which he actually misses much more than he'll admit. i bought a great bookcase for the treasures ben keeps bringing home from work, and it really ties our living room together. we rested and watched movies all afternoon. (note: ben began to get sick at night)

monday my mom and i spent the day together, getting my new car and going out for lunch. she was spoiling me so bad, treating me to delicious bamboo (gourmet chinese food) and giving me money to buy some spring clothes. i ran to the high school to surprise my sisters and took emily and julianna shopping with me to old navy and the mall. unfortunately, i completely forgot that my spanish class had agreed to meet even though it was spring break, so i missed that. but oh well. ben was very, very sick and my poor baby just slept the entire afternoon and evening, so i cleaned the closet.

tuesday i slept in for so long and i went to the gym for so long and i really scrubbed the apartment, doing little cleaning things i had meant to get around to. i used my NEW CAR to run errands :) and then I went to work and I got to work with the lovely Sammy and I was in a great mood. ben started feeling a little better and i brought him home soup.

wednesday I met mom and laurel and westford and we took to train to boston to try and find laurel a prom dress. after wandering around on newbury street, freezing, we realized that we didn't want to be on newbury street, so we took taxis and trained it all the way back to nashua for good old fashioned david's bridal. laurel found a lovely dress, and then i came home to benny who was FINALLY WELL! we got salads at al dente's and came home to watch them, and then fell asleep ridiculously early.

TODAY I SLEPT IN! and I'm going to go to the gym for a long time, and i'm going to watch crappy TV, and I'm going to get some work done so when i go back to school i won't freak out, and i'm going to work, and just be so happy that i get to be lazy. and tomorrow i'm seeing sarah in the morning for breakfast, and saturday ben and i will have the morning together, and sunday is emily and julianna's birthday!!

i just wanted to brag about my blissful week and how happy i am and stuff. there are some westford kids i really miss, so maybe we can meet up with each other? <3 <3 <3

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Good Morning, Travel Pro

Mar. 13th, 2006 | 09:56 am

I'm sitting here at my momma's desk in her office at Chelmsford while everyone is doing Monday chores all around me. I'm meeting with her here so we can drive to Lowell and get my new used car! It's scary. So scary. I have horrible luck with cars and have crashed two of them in my time at college. I don't believe that a better driver than I would have fared differently. It's a jungle out there. Wherever the blame lies, I still am going to be thrust back into the driving world as of about 1 or 2 this afternoon, and I am majorly nervous. If you are a praying person, think about me today.

Otherwise, things are great, life is moving quickly and I love spring break. I'm hoping to spend today up this way with my sisters and then get home in time to take care of my sick husband who has never been ill for years and is pretty sad about it.

I was reading a baking lj group today and it was so cute and I really want to bake, cook, or create. I find cooking to be theraputic, and I'd really like to have a larger kitchen so I can put things together and make lovely little meals for my husband and I. So cute!

I love business talks with Ray while waiting for Momma to show. Next time you see me, I'll be the proud owner of a car in the prime of it's decline!

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